6 random facts

Audrey at pinks and blues tagged me quite some time ago and i am sorry it has taken me so long to respond...here it is finally, six random facts about me:

1. I did not walk until i was 22 months old. i spent time with my 22 month old nephew tonight who has been walking for a year, it is truly mind-boggling that it took me that long to walk...my mom was worried and even took me to a doctor to see if i was developmentally delayed...luckily i wasn't...just couldn't be rushed. i laugh because this is still often the case. i do things when i am ready, in my own time. i guess you are who you are.

2. when i was in grade school, each classroom had a special needs student and in fifth grade we didn't have a spelling bee, we had a signing bee instead and i took second place. i felt like i was robbed. the girl who won did not have her own sentence just had to add the word i left out even though i gave her every other word in the sentence...i still remember that sentence verbatim.

3. i am a perfectionist and often, no matter how appealing something is to me, i won't even attempt it unless i am confident that i will be successful, or dare i say, even find perfection in what i am attempting to take on. this is something i am working on, to let myself make mistakes and give myself leeway in learning new things.

4. i didn't realize how angry i was at myself when i miscarried or how much i blamed and punished myself until i was able to become pregnant and have forgiven my body for failing me. i notice that even when i am exhausted and uncomfortable i am willing to go out and live my life, when i never would allow myself to find any joy or happiness in anything after i miscarried. i realized this recently and it made me sad that i have been so hard on myself.

5. i hate bananas and i always have. i wouldn't even eat banana baby food as an infant.

6. i hate being vulnerable...even when i find myself getting emotional when watching TV or videos, i will make fun of it rather than let it grab hold of my emotions. it is funny because while i hate to feel vulnerable, when i see other people allow themselves to be vulnerable, it is one of the most beautiful things in the world to me...it is like looking at a window into their soul.