in honor of david's father

this is a picture of my father-in-law. he passed away two years ago today and he has been on my mind all day. i wish i had been able to get to know him better. i am so glad i was able to meet him. it makes me sad that little audrey will never know her grandpa montoya here on earth, but i know she is with him now. he is probably bouncing her on his knee and teaching her all kinds of things she will need to know when she gets here.

i love my husband so much and i cannot express my gratitude to his father for raising him to be such an amazing man.

proctor baby shower

my cousin Shanda threw me such a delightful baby shower last weekend. she had so much good food and fun games. it was such a blast. there were candy dishes all around the room filled with different pink candy and baby pictures of various family members hung up throughout the room. it was so good to see and visit with everyone. i truly was showered with love and generous gifts for baby Audrey. i really appreciate all the time, energy and work that went into planning such a fun event.

Thanks Shanda for throwing me such a great shower. Thanks Lyn for hosting it at your home. i really appreciate it!

the darling sign that Shanda gave me for Audrey's nursery:

6 random facts

Audrey at pinks and blues tagged me quite some time ago and i am sorry it has taken me so long to respond...here it is finally, six random facts about me:

1. I did not walk until i was 22 months old. i spent time with my 22 month old nephew tonight who has been walking for a year, it is truly mind-boggling that it took me that long to walk...my mom was worried and even took me to a doctor to see if i was developmentally delayed...luckily i wasn't...just couldn't be rushed. i laugh because this is still often the case. i do things when i am ready, in my own time. i guess you are who you are.

2. when i was in grade school, each classroom had a special needs student and in fifth grade we didn't have a spelling bee, we had a signing bee instead and i took second place. i felt like i was robbed. the girl who won did not have her own sentence just had to add the word i left out even though i gave her every other word in the sentence...i still remember that sentence verbatim.

3. i am a perfectionist and often, no matter how appealing something is to me, i won't even attempt it unless i am confident that i will be successful, or dare i say, even find perfection in what i am attempting to take on. this is something i am working on, to let myself make mistakes and give myself leeway in learning new things.

4. i didn't realize how angry i was at myself when i miscarried or how much i blamed and punished myself until i was able to become pregnant and have forgiven my body for failing me. i notice that even when i am exhausted and uncomfortable i am willing to go out and live my life, when i never would allow myself to find any joy or happiness in anything after i miscarried. i realized this recently and it made me sad that i have been so hard on myself.

5. i hate bananas and i always have. i wouldn't even eat banana baby food as an infant.

6. i hate being vulnerable...even when i find myself getting emotional when watching TV or videos, i will make fun of it rather than let it grab hold of my emotions. it is funny because while i hate to feel vulnerable, when i see other people allow themselves to be vulnerable, it is one of the most beautiful things in the world to me...it is like looking at a window into their soul.

my handsome cyclist

so as i mentioned in a previous post, my husband rode in the salt lake century 107 mile ride last month. they had a photographer shooting pictures and the pictures are finally posted on the website. what a handsome devil!

our new (but not so new) and temporary fridge

We have had a day...the saturday that never ends.

A few days ago our water dispenser on our fridge stopped working
and today Dave decided to clean out the fridge only to find a puddle
of water under the freezer, opened it up and all the food had thawed. The bread dough we had was totally risen and busting out of the pack and the stuff in the bottom of the fridge was frozen. we called to see how much it would be to have someone come out and look at it and explained what was going on and were told that it would be $200.00 charge minimum, if not more...pretty frustrating to put in that much money on an older fridge.

we decided to bite the bullet and purchase a new fridge. we went to several stores before we realized that no one had a fridge that we could purchase, put in our truck and drive home today. the fridge we wanted(basically the same make and model that we have had) is special order only and would take four weeks to be delivered...finally we settled on one that was similar but that could be delivered this thursday. we went to target and walmart after to find a mini-fridge to get us through the next week so our food wouldn't go bad, but they were all so expensive. Finally we found a good-sized fridge on ksl.com for $30 and we went and picked it up. We got home at ten and my poor feet and knees have just had it for the day, not exactly the laid back Saturday that we were planning on...at least it is a long weekend.

Wii love it!

so my husband is a sweetheart and purchased the Wii gaming system as a surprise for me while i was in virginia with my sisters. we had talked about getting one for some time since a friend lent us her wii and we had so much fun playing together. we thought it would be fun to have one, especially in the later months of my pregnancy when it is so hot and miserable for me to be outside and i don't feel like doing much anyway after work and for when baby comes and we are not able to go out on as many dates. they are hard to find, so i just thought that sometime in the future when we saw one we would pick it up. while i was away, a friend from work saw a bunch at sams club and remembered dave had mentioned to him that he wanted to get one so he picked it up for us.

we had a game night last night and it was so much fun. we got a pizza and candy and played until the wii hours(haha, i know i am a dork)of the night, which for me is about eight in the evening. i got so into it, i was feeling like a teenager. it was fun to connect it to the internet and play people from all over the world. i now want all my friends and family to get one so that we can race each other on mario kart.

video of little audrey at the request of family that live across the miles...