HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!

happy birthday to my dear husband david. i love you more than i could ever express. i know this note is not as lengthy or eloquent as what you wrote to me but i did want to tell you that even as i write this and think about who you are and what you mean to me, tears stream down my face because i love you so much. I am so blessed to be your wife. i feel like the luckiest girl alive to have you as my husband. i know that, because you don't like to have attention drawn to you, you sometimes get embarassed by the things i write about you on this blog...but this is my outlet for my feelings and experiences and the closest thing that i have to a journal and i want to remember all these wonderful moments that we share and record my feelings.

i am so excited to share this next year of your life with you. i love you!

to my amazing wife...

You mean the world to me. There are so many things I truly admire about you as a person, as my best friend and as my wife and partner. Even though you go through frustrating days and sleepless nights, you don't give up. You are a fighter. You may get down but you are never out. I love that about you.

Your smile makes my dark days brighter and when I see it, it makes me melt inside. I love that about you.

You are the most thoughtful and caring person I've ever met. You truly care about others and are always mindful of the feelings of those around you. Always willing to help others - no questions asked. You are my role model. I love that about you.

I enjoy the journey of discovering all there is that comprises you. You are beautiful in all the moments you aren't trying to be. Every no make-up sweatpants no shower morning hair moment is a treasure - and you never know it. I love that about you.

You are sometimes picky about the smallest things. While I don't always understand it, I wouldn't change it for the world. Changing that would be changing you - and I'd like to keep you just the way you are because...I love that about you.

You help me grow as a person. You haven't let me stagnate in this relationship. I relax into things very easily and become complacent. You have kept me on the ball and expanding as a person. I love that about you.

You ask me why or what I love about you and the list could go on forever. I especially love and appreciate that you are carrying our precious little angel and truly wish everyday that there were something I could do to alleviate your pain.

All in all, I love spending every moment of everyday with you.

baby girl bedding

the bedding we ordered online finally came today. isn't it cute? it makes me so excited to work some more on the nursery...



i also got my easter swap today so it was a really fun mail day!




thanks sara!

are you kidding me??

yesterday i went to go pay a traffic violation. i had had a fairly emotional morning and i was sitting at my desk at work when i thought i should pay my speeding ticket(i wasn't speeding, and the moto-cop already had his blinker on to turn out when i passed him, but that is another story for another time) so i pulled it out of my purse and realized i only had 14 days to pay. i haven't received a ticket(excluding parking tickets, oh my fidelity investment days...) in almost four years and i thought that i had 30 days to pay it so i rushed down to the police department building because i realized it had been 17 days.

so i arrived and parked my car and headed inside. i had already cried once already that day(i'm pregnant and i told you, i had an emotional day) and i get there determined to be pleasant and get this taken care of as fast as possible so i could get back to the office. my boss was out for the day and i was fielding all of her calls and emails. I went through the security gate and the machine started beeping. i had no idea what was setting it off. the only thing i had in my pockets was seven dollars and three bobby pins, they told me that the bobby pins would not set it off so i was thinking great, and i asked if a safety pin could make it go off(a safety pin was keeping my jeans zipped up as i prefer to use my bella band and regular jeans than try to find maternity jeans that are long enough, and i was thinking how fun it was going to be to even get to the safety pin in public) and i was told that a safety pin won't set it off either...but the machine keeps beeping at me so finally i took out the bobby pins, set them in a tray and walked through...and guess what? no beeping. i was pretty frustrated.

...so then the rent-a-cop started going through my purse and i was still pleasant and smiling, but he was scowling and looking down at his finger. i looked down and he was holding a cubicle clip(i order the supplies for my office and have about a million of these little suckers in my desk, but i had no idea that i had one in my purse) so the cop starts freaking out and asks me if I have any other “weapons” in my purse because he was really going to get mad if he was “stabbed” with anything else. are you freaking kidding me?? so i get in there to start rummaging through it and he barks, "get back" ...um, you just asked me if i have anything else that is going to upset you in my purse, i am just checking to make sure...what i wanted to say is, i'm sorry officer freaking friendly, i didn't know that the big, bad cubicle clip was even in there, let alone going to put you in mortal danger...geez, what a jerk!

i finally get through security and i grabbed a number. There were fifteen people ahead of me and the number didn’t change once the whole time I was there so I just got in line to see the cashier instead just to pay the darn thing and get back to work even though i didn't think i deserved it because i follow the laws of the land and take great care to drive safely and the clerk charged me fifty dollars for being three days late even though I explained that I never get tickets and i thought i had thirty days, as soon as i saw it was fourteen days i came right in. she said i could take it up with the hearing officer if i wanted to. are you kidding me?? what if i don't have two hours to spend in this building because their only open when i am supposed to be at work? i just paid and told her to have a good day. It was $132.00 for a plea in abeyance charge and fifty more for the late fee and it will be another fifty when I go to traffic school(because you bet your sweet bippy that i am not going to let this ordeal affect my insurance rate) good thing that costs more than the crib we have picked out. i got back in my car and cried all the way to work. it was NOT a good day.

twenty years

my dad died twenty years ago today. i have been a little down today. i went to work late because i was not feeling well so i decided i would drop by and visit my dad's grave. when i got home from work dave met me at the door and told me he was taking me out to dinner because this was an important day and we needed to celebrate my dad's life. dave is so thoughtful and aware of me. i cannot express my love and gratitude for him. i have tried to think about who i am today and who my dad is to me. i have also been filled with love for my siblings. on my dad's headstone it says, "we will live and love better because you were here" and every time i read that i get emotional because of my dad's influence in my life. i got emotional today because i was thinking about our little baby girl that is coming soon and how she will never know my dad in this life. i like to think he is holding her now though, telling her the stories that he once told me and showering her with love.

sorry the picture is blurry, it was taken with my camera phone and we didn't have any sunlight, we were in the shade of the trees.


here is a picture of the flowers i brought from all his kids, i picked these flowers because they seemed so bright and happy.


dad holding my baby brother thomas

my weekend

spent time playing in the park with rachel and jj


goodbye red wall, dave and i worked on putting up the primer in the nursery(dave did most of it) so that we can paint in pink...

in-n-out

i want in-n-out so bad right now that i can't breathe...okay, not really THAT bad, but i REALLY want some. i told dave i want to drive to vegas to go get some. he said we can if i really want to(i think he doesn't want to tell his pregnant wife no) but lovingly reminded me that i would be pretty tired and that would be a pretty expensive meal...i guess we won't go but nothing else even sounds edible because i want it so bad...