Coming in September

i miss blogging. maybe that is dorky, but it is true. i have fallen out of the habit of both reading blogs and updating my own. Since i have not been feeling well the last several weeks, i have been reading a lot more and miss keeping my own record of my life. although i update my status on facebook, i don't feel like that is a very good record for our family...so many posts i have missed, so many pictures, so many memories...i have news that i do not want to keep to myself any longer. i am pregnant! it is hard not to cry with joy as i say this. i am torn between trying to keep my emotions in just in case things don't work out and shouting it from the rooftops. after going through hormone treatments last year (including progesterone shots and clomid, yuck) and having it not be productive (or reproductive, haha) i think i had an emotional block against it. i didn't feel up to doing it all again. the plan was to start on fertility drugs again in january so we could enjoy the holidays and not feel pressure or crazy hormonal emotional swings. i think we just got the best Christmas present ever by my body doing what it is actually supposed to do and conceiving naturally.

dave has felt a lot of peace about this pregnancy and i am trying to relax and trust his thoughts. i have been pretty emotional from the beginning. since i had an ultrasound and they cancelled my bloodwork since they could not tell if it was a viable pregnancy or not...

...okay, started this post a month and a half ago and since then i have had an ultrasound and found out that we are having a baby boy! i'm so excited! i still have a lot of nausea and feel dizzy most of the time even though i am in my second trimester but no longer feel worried about this pregnancy. i feel a lot of peace that this baby boy is okay and is excited to join our family.

we found out i was pregnant on new years day. best new years ever! our kids have a knack for making holidays special with the news that they are coming. we found out we were pregnant with audrey the day before thanksgiving.

we are feeling very blessed and very happy and a little emotional, or a lot, depending on the day. haha!