just my opinion...

since it is the beginning of a new year, a lot of people have been blogging about goals and resolutions. i have never been a big fan of the new years resolution because i think if you want to make a change in your life, do it. i don't think waiting for a specific time of year is beneficial, it only puts off what you want to accomplish. dave has not been a big fan of the new year resolution this week because his quiet morning gym has become crowded.

i do like to reflect on the past year and the things i have accomplished and things i have learned and i do enjoy the opportunity and possiblity of a new year, i just don't think you need to wait until that time to establish or renew your own personal goals.

christmas morning

i had such a great holiday. i came home from work on christmas eve and dave had spent his morning off cleaning the house and our hardwood floors were shiny and beautiful. i walked into the kitchen and in the middle of the table was two dozen red roses and a letter to me from dave. it made me cry. i love dave so much and he knows just how to make me feel special. after i read the letter, we went to brunch at mimi's cafe and came home and got ready for dinner at aunt rosemary's house. it was so fun to see rosemary and kent, jennifer, david and catherine and their families. it was the icing on the cake to have my brother thomas arrive at 7:30. he had had such a rough drive in the snow and it was so great to see him and give him a hug. i cannot remember a better christmas. i truly enjoyed the time that i was able to spend with thomas, dave, rachel, jeremy and jj. dave spoiled me silly, and it has been so fun to use the fancy new gadgets that he bought for me. i can't wait to take the christmas decorations down so i can hang up my new mirror, it matches our bookcase perfectly.


thomas opening digital camera from mom and dad


dave opening ratatouille dvd


this is the present that was in the big gold box, it has been such a lifesaver in helping me sleep. baby knows me well...


rachel, jeremy and jj came over to open presents and eat some brunch. it was so fun to spend time with them.

we have a heartbeat

we had our second ultrasound on tuesday and we saw our little peanut's heart beating at a speed of 140...it was the most incredible thing in the world...we are so thrilled and grateful for this amazing miracle growing inside my tummy...

baby love

after work today i was spent so i just cuddled up on the couch under a blanket while dave went to "run some errands" or so he said...when he got home he did some wrapping in the basement and then he brought up this ginormous gift that wouldn't even fit under the tree with a bow that was bigger than my head. when i asked him what it was(i always ask what my gifts are and dave is really getting better at not telling me and making me wait, darn it) he said, "it isn't from me" so i went over to investigate...the tag said it was to me from baby. wow, either this baby really loves me or it is pretty tricky by using a decoy box. i guess only time will tell...

one year later...

today makes one year since we lost our little angel. it was a hard day for me at work. i snapped at my sister in an email(sorry rachel) and was pretty unpleasant to be around at work. each time i saw the date(whether in an email, my outlook calendar, what have you...) my heart just dropped. even as i write this i am sobbing. it has been such a challenging year for me and in so many ways i have changed. the only thing that cheered me up is the queasiness in my tummy to remind me that miracles happen. today made me realize that pain is still there. the time that has passed and the baby in my tummy does not erase what dave and i have been through. i can't even express the love i have for dave and his constant support, patience and love he always gives so freely to me. he knew i needed to get out of the office and take a break so he sent out an email to all of our friends at work inviting them to join us for lunch and the six of us went out and i was able to laugh and joke and forget my troubles...dave is so amazing and i love him so much.



this is the ornament i bought for dave last christmas. it is our angel, "the angel of the heart" and when i look at it, i think of how far we have come...

preggie pops

well morning sickness officially arrived at our house last night. rachel and jj had spent the evening with us and brought us dinner and dave and i were settled in and ready to go to sleep when it hit me, i said to dave, "i feel like i am going to throw up" and he jumped up and went to get me a bucket and not a moment too soon...yuck. this morning was the same story, i felt so nauseated after i got out of the shower and once again i lost my cookies. all morning at work i sipped sprite and munched on saltines but they only provided momentary relief. after work dave and i stopped by babies r us and picked up some preggie pops(lollies that are supposed to help with queasiness) and i hope they will help me...so far i have only tried the sour rasberry and i liked the taste of it...they have some unusual flavors though, ginger, spearmint and lavender...i guess ginger is supposed to help with nausea. we'll see. i'll let you know what i think later. the jury is still out...

the weepies

how can i compare you to
a favorite pair of shoes
maybe my bright red boots, if they had wings...